I love my OCs, I like the things I have planned in my head and I love reading through old stuff I wrote once.
But I am in such a paralysed state at the moment where I can't seem to get up and be creative. I haven't drawn in a long time to be honest because I can't stand the view of my own art, I feel like I become more and more distant to my creative side than ever, out of a fear of failing my own expectations. On the one hand I can't bring myself to draw because all i do lately is crap and on the other hand it won't become any better by not practicing.
All this makes me very sad, very sad and hopeless.
It's like an apathy.